Dear You Part 2

Like I said this would be in 2 parts, these two letters are to the people that hurt me. The language might be kind of bad and I'm sorry but I have to get this all out.


Dear Playa,


Yes I call you Playa cause that's what you are. You Played on me and one of my best friends too. When I hear you name all I can do is shake my head and disappointment washes over me. It was fun while it lasted I guess. But all the good memories that we had made, you destroyed by all the lies that you told me. It's sad that you couldn't just tell me you were cheating on me. You had the balls to hold him over me all the time cause I made a mistake? Well at least I had the guts to tell you. I should have listened to my friends and family, they all tried to tell me, but I would always just make excuses for you. You sicken me. That was all how I felt when I first found out about the two of you. I hated you so much! But now, I don't care about you anymore. You aren't worth my time. Someone else has filled your place and he treats me amazingly. He is so much better than you and you know what better looking to. You think you can ever replace me, well good luck because you will never find another girl like me. Oh and also be careful, all that sleeping around can lead to STD's or an STI, and you wouldn't want that do you? Anyways, I hope you actually marry this one, and I hope she is Pregnant too so you can have everything you ever wanted. I still hate you and never wanna talk to you again, but I forgive you for lying to me because if you wouldn't have, I wouldn't be the luckiest girl in the world and have someone in my life who treats me so much better than you ever could.
-Cheyenne.






This second letter is to the other half of this.




Dear Backstabber Lier girl,


Ugh really? You tell me one thing saying you'd never hurt me or try to take him from me and you did it. Wow that's low and slutish. Oh I did the same thing to J but Me and her are good now. Karma bit me in the ass. But I do have to thank you, I have everything you ever wanted still, and I'm sure you got what you wanted, but how does it feel? How did it feel when you saw me? Did the guilt set in yet? It will, but don't I don't care about you. I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU AND HIM THATS IT! And congrats on your pregnancy I hope having his children turns out to be everything you hopes it to be. I forgive you for taking him, I don't care about that anymore. As a matter of fact, I have someone so much better now who treats me amazingly. So I hope your happy, I still hate you but I mean you no harm, because at this point I understand that you just are doing what I did. Doing what makes you happy. Well congrats and I hope you have a great life. I never wanna talk to you again.
-Cheyenne




As much as I'd like to tell everyone who these people are, but it wouldnt be to fair to all parties.

Dear You

First off I am so excited to say congrats to one of my amazing best friends Kyle! Congrats darling on everything! I love you doll!


Now to the blog that I am posting today, this blog is about some of my feelings about certain people in my life, people that have hurt me and also someone who has made everything so much easier and for that I will be forever in his debt. Names will not be disclosed. Certain people know who these people are and if you well congrats lol. These Blogs are also going to be separate and in letter forms. The first one will be on this blog, the other two will be together on the second blog.


This is to the one who makes everything better, I just hope that I could make everything better too.


Dear you,


I am so extremely happy to have you and pink in my life! You mean so much to me, and I care about you so much. Remember what I told you the first time we hung out, about me being there, I wasn't lying, I will be there always. I want you to know that I swear I am the luckiest girl in the world. You are so perfectly unperfect and I love that about you. You give me butterflies more that anyone ever has, and I just can't seem to get you out of my head. You make it so I can't stop smiling. Thank you for everything and I really cannot wait to see what the future holds. Thank you for taking care of me when I got sick on the roof, and thank you for listening to me when that random depression came over me. I feel like I can be my dorky self around you and It makes me so happy that you except the fact I'm crazy and have two personalities. By the way her name is Emilee I never told you that. I love that I can just look into your eyes and my heart just melts when you kiss me. Thank you for everything! Oh yeah and p.s. I am falling for you.


Love,
Cheyenne

Caution, this blog is not child or adult sensitive. If you get offended easily don't read please!

Dear stupid people,
I really freakin hate you! You screw up life so much that it just makes my head want to explode. I really wish you would both just move out of state so I can forget about you both! I hate you so so so extremely much I wanna scream! You repulse me and make me very angry. I swear every song I hear that has violence in it, such as the song Radio by Aiden, it says I basically to take a bath with a radio while its plugged in, it makes me think of you. So go do it kay! Ugh! That's harsh, even to say to you stupid people. It seems to me that both of you stupid people were put on this earth to suck the life out of good people like us, well you stupid people are together, and obviously are so in love, why don't you go and spend your lives together and let us good people have what we deserve. STOP SUCKING OUR LIVES DRY! I think that I hate liars more than I hate stupid people....and you know what you two aren't only stupid but are total liars wow double trouble and more of a pain in the ass! Just do us a favor, leave, don't ever turn back! Let us enjoy our lives in peace.


I Effing Hate You!


Emilee

Yes, I've Finally Fallen Down The Rabbit Hole

As my Blog tittle say's, I have fallen down the rabbit hole. Every blog from now on will show you all a side of me not many see, this we shall call it my alter ego, this is the person that I become when I am very angry (well thats an understatement) or when I go out to the club or to have fun, she has been known by many names, I first discovered she existed when I was in tenth grade, her name changed through out the years because I changed, and so did my needs. No she is not an invisible friend. Let me, before I go any further, define what an alter ego is. Basically in lame terms it is the other half of your personality. I call mine Emilee. Emilee is a girl who isn't afraid of anything, she is strong and seductive, she is persuasive, and has the ability to get what she wants if she really wants it. Emilee reminds me somewhat (and i mean somewhat) of Ann Boleyn. The reason I say that is because Emilee is smart, and graceful like Ann Boleyn was. Now come on I admire Ann Boleyn she seduced a king, she was one of the reasons for the split from the church, and produced the Queen of England's line. I admire her. But alas we can't all marry kings or princes, as much as I'd love too, the possibility of that happening are slim to none. Anyways, Emilee is my wild side. She isn't afraid of anything or anyone, she can get violent when angry, she never puts up with anyones crap. Emilee is a lot of fun. Some of you who read might say hummm I think I know what she's talking about her, I've see her exhibit that same behavior, or again you all might be saying, she must be making this up, I've never seen her violent or any of what she is saying. In that case you don't know me very well, or you just haven't noticed it. When I first meet people, I either meet them as Emilee or I meet them as Cheyenne. Usually if it's a girl, I meet them as Cheyenne, but that also goes with guys I really don't find attractive. But when it's a guy that I think is attractive or a girl I don't like or feel threatened by they meet Emilee. Of course I always introduce myself as Cheyenne with the exception of the club or when I'm out with my friends. In summery, sometimes, I might come on here as Emilee, in those cases I will sign Emilee, any other time, it will be signed as Cheyenne. Please I am not a freak, I do not have split personality disorder, there really is a such thing as an alter ego, and I encourage you to find yours.

Love,

Cheyenne/Emilee <3